Wow what a powerful God we have!

Well our last trip to Haiti was a tough one for me to prepare for. I wasn't sure why but for the first time I was not sure if I could go. It's been a interesting time for me and I have not shared much with anybody. I let some think they were hearing it all but really was keeping me to me and not allowing others to have to carry a burden.

Many though came with ideas "how to help me". But really when it came down to it I just needed to see God use me when I knew that I could not be used. Have you ever been there?

Well the trip to Haiti was different for sure but on ever hand God was showing me His love and mercy. He showed me His greatness by the things that He has already set up for BOSKO. He showed me his love through the peoples smiles and eyes.

When I got home there was no time for rest because the next weekend was adventure weekend and that is with like 30 youth. Once again I hit a wall of not sure if I should be doing it. Once again God came through to show it's not me it's him.

When I got home from adventure I visited a dear friend/family member of mine that has been very sick for awhile. I have been visited regular and have even had time with her talking when that was not suppose to happen. I ended up staying with her until about 2:30 am and had the great privilege to hold her hand and sing to her. I don't handle hospitals or blood to well but God had such a great peace in that room and I really believe I felt His love for her as I was able to serve her. What a honor it was and even though I don't have words I learned alot in the last few months being with her on her journey. Rose Ellen Stintchfield passed away Monday and I have been asked to do her funeral. It's my first but for some reason that anxiety of I can't have been replaced with the Love and grace that only God can give.

God is allowing me to hear Him and walk with Him and not be moved by peoples ideas or emotions. Better than that not to be moved by my emotions or ideas! I believe He is teaching me to be a experienced pilot one that looks at and trusts the instruments that God has given Him instead of being moved by emotions and thoughts like a novice pilot is so often.

I am not looking back and trying to figure out what I just went through but going forward in obedience of what His instruments tell me to do. Sometimes its hard because it means letting go of future plans you had, friends you had, or even your fears! But it's so much better because you are free.

New Post

Hey well I am addicted to facebook so my advice is join facebook! :-) lol. Anyway things have been rough but getting better. Short story version of Naitile is that she is now doing great. But was taken from the orphange by her father and then brought back. Then we found out that her real name was not Naitile Mooreland but Stephanila Pierre. So all the paper work had to be redone and then we had to have DNA test done. But Praise God that before the foundations of the world He knew her and her name.! He also knew that she would be our daughter. How blessed we are to have such a wonderful daughter!

I have made some changes in my life and really don't know where they will lead but for the first time can really say that God is in control. I have no idea where I will end up or whats next but I know that we serve an awesome God that has much better plans for me than I could ever imagine.

What videos don't have sound?????

This is a video that Jarod made for me and I just wanted to share it with you

I am saying YES to God and I say NO to fear, anxieties, other people opinions, other people's agenda's, the past, past wounds, past experiences, my own thoughts, and everything else that provokes itself against the path that God has for me!!! God is worth a YES! He is more than worth it. He is the one that saved me, renewed me, healed me, equiped me, and He is everything! Join me today and say YES!

It's Saturday

First of all this pic has nothing to do with this blog I just love this pic of my daughter!

Well I am trying to get better at blogging again. I warn you that I am in a deep thought mood. How amazing is it that before we all were borned that God knew us. He made us & knew us before the foundations of the world. Then He sent His son to save us and did this before we were borned. Out of His love He saved us. Without Him we would not even be here.


I tend to proclaim all the time about a God that is all powerful and all present. I would be one of the first to tell you how God has healed me in so many amazing ways and many of you have seen it before your own eyes. I would shout from a mountain top how much God loves you and how amazing His forgivness is. With all of this said I still want to hide when God opens doors and ask me to go through them. I stuggle with the "Who am I to do that?" question and "Are You for real?" remark.


Seriously where is the line that you cross and finally give your everything into the hands that created you? I think that at that point is where the peace that passes all understanding is and that joy that is everlasting stays with you. It's that place where you finally realize that I am tired of fighting the very thing I want. I tired of trying to fit in with the people around me and instead I am running into my Makers arms where I belong. I am ready and I am in His arms and saying ok I am ready lets go.

I am standing with the One who gives me His strength, His provision, His Health, and He is everything that I need. With Him I am walking forward.

He is everything that you need come walk with us

Ok facebook addict repenting #2

Hi everyone

I have to admit I have been on facebook alot and have not took the time to blog. But I have been reading blogs. I guess one of the reasons that I have not blogged is that there has been so much going on that I don't have anything to say! :-) I know that probably does not make sense but ......well it's me!

I was in Haiti in February and discovered I love being a Mom. I love my daughter and I love how much Jarod loves being her Dad. Here is a pic. I will try to blog more but if you don't see me for awhile come look in facebook. :-)

3:45 am Confessions (or at least it was)

Blog saved by Sarah Olsen...........Thank you Sarah

I Kelly Fehrenbacher am a facebook addict. My addiction started really slow and then the access of having it run behind what you are really suppose to be doing all day made it even harder to say no. Then the way you can download all your pics and it does not take three years made it even more tough to just say no. There it is now maybe knowing my addiction will help me move on or just maybe not forget to post! Seriously if I am gone for a real long time come find me on facebook and make sure that I am at least sleeping a little :-)



Last week I had to face my addiction ...I was at work looking for a program to stop employees from facebooking at work with facebook up on the next tab. Yes it's sad but true.



I am doing great! I am a little busy at work and my sleep pattern is a little messed which might be the reason I am in my office at 3:45 in the morning! But it is so awesome what God is doing. By the way my last trip to Haiti was awesome. I love being a Mom! I am so blessed by God to be where I am at.



I think sometimes we look so much at what has not happened that we don't realize all that could have happened. I met a person last week that has been struggling their whole lives because of abuse and addiction. As we started talking we realized that some of the things that she has experience not only were close to mine but without our knowing they overlapped. As I was talking to her God whispered to me His love.



See I have been so busy trying to improve everything that I missed the awesome hand of God that has been guiding me through the things that I could not even see. We don't thank God enough. We don't give Him credit enough! We don't understand His love for us enough!



Please take time today and thank God for the things that He protected you from and brought you from that you did not even see. Thank Him today for just His love that is so vast that our minds can't wrap around it. Thank Him today for the things that you have accomplished that you took the credit for and really it is all His.



God is so beautiful! He is so awesome!

Wow

Well finally we are having a DHS appt. most likely in February! We decided to wait until February because our church mission trip will be then. We are blessed to be in leaders of our missions in our church and blessed to be able to make 2009's trip to Haiti. I would have been sad to go to Nigeria instead of Haiti. But please don't get me wrong I can't wait to go to Nigeria it just would have been hard to not go to Haiti and see Naitile.

But it's awesome to do both see Naitile and hook up Three Angels with some awesome people. Be in prayer about the team going to February and that God will lead the right ones to go. Right now there is too many interested but I know that God has a way to adjust that. I also know that people need to be open to His voice.

I am so excited because even though Naitile will not be able to stay the night with me I heard that she may be able to come and swim, eat and etc. It's funny I don't have any idea what size of clothes or what to pack. All ideas and suggestions are appreciated.

In case you were wavering I just want to let you know that God is so awesome and He has your best interest in mind. During the holiday season it's so easy to get caught up in all the events and forget the reason we celebrate. Don't forget to take time to talk to God and also during that time lead your ear because He does talk back if we only listen.

Be Blessed

Kelly Fehrenbacher (Blessed by God to be a Mom)

He is still ...........

I don't what you are facing today but I just want to say that Our God is still there. He is still our savior, the we can count on, the one who always understands, the one who comes quickly to comfort and heal, the one who we can cry our "Daddy" too, and there is nothing greater than Our God.

NOTHING!

I know many of you may be facing things that I don't understand but today I write this in situations that I don't understand either. But I know the answer and that is ...I don't know about how or why that is going on with you but I do know my God!

And even without understanding I can tell you that my God is great and bigger then anything that we don't understand. He will meet you where you are at and wrap His arms around you. He will heals all the wounds that only He is able to see. WOW even after all of that there is so much more to say. Then on top of all the good things to say about Our God then to add that He loves with a everlasting love Wow! If that doesn't make you think about how blessed we are I don't know what will.

Be Blessed today and allow God to come meet you where you are at. Know that it's ok not to know why some things happen and still be able to say that you still know you God.

I don't know about you but I serve a BIG GOD

Ok I just have to get something off my chest. First before I start I do believe in voting and I think that we should pray before we vote and vote for the right person. But I am tired of hearing that we are doomed if we don't get who we are voting for. That's right! strong Christians who always talk about a big God that can do anything unless of course Obama wins and then we are all doomed!!! Well do they not realize that they just made McCain their savior. Wake up call do you really believe that any man will save our country!??!

What about Romans 13:1 "Let every soul be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and the authorities that exist are appointed by God."

I believe in a Big God that say what is impossible for Me! A God that has healed me and many others. A God that watches over my child in Haiti and sees me and never mind the fact He sees everybody else too. A God that sent His only son for me so that I could receive His on redemption. And yes I serve a God that is not going to be surprised when whoever it is becomes president.

I am not saying just go out and vote for whoever or that I am not aware of the changes that could happen in each case but just don't put your happiness and future in the hands of a man. There are people around me that are in so much fear and uproar over what man gets in office. Which really allows a man to take the place of God. Only God should be able to make us happy and show us our future. Even if times do get hard the ones that has a true relationship with God will prosper. Maybe not in the ways that the world sees but trust me they will have treasures beyond what the world can give.

Have Faith Put Your Trust In God

Oh by the way we are moving right along with the adoption forms looking forward to a DHS appointment soon

So blessed

Wow I don't post for over a month and now three times in one day. My husband read my blog and while I was at a meeting tonight made this picture. I had to share it with you. It's so awesome to look at for me. So I can officially say that this is our family picture. It will grow and change but for now it's complete and this is a picture from now so it's good.

God is so good He blesses us all in unique ways that speak straight to our soul and changes us from the inside out. If we let Him........ He will do it everyday. You would think that I would let Him after days like today but like many others I let my agenda get in the way of His best.

Thank you God for Naitile and for the blessings that you have for me now. God grant me and the others reading this strength and wisdom to stop and see the blessings that You have given us today. Don't let us look so far ahead that we miss You today. Amen

Oh my look at this pic

Makes my heart warm!

Sweet Dream

I had a very sweet dream last night. I was holding Naitile in my arms and had my hand on her face. When I woke up this morning my hands were in that position. I know I am being a little weird but I feel more in love with her today. I can not wait to have Naitile home.

We had family pictures done at the pictures at the park fundraiser. Which by the way was not as painful as I thought it was going to be (Thanks to Todd). But I hate getting pictures done. Anyway my mother wanted pictures of each of us (me and my two brothers) with our families. So my brother Mark was first with his wife Carrie and my two cute nieces and then my brother Scott was next with his wife Kristi and their two sons. So then she wanted a picture of Jarod and I and something in me was like "no" because we are all not here. Now I will have to admit that part of that was the fact I hate getting my picture taken. But another part of me was I don't want to not have Naitile not in it. So for now lets take our family picture in Haiti and put that on the wall until she can come home...........................................................I would be happy with that.

I pray Naitile knows that she has parents that love her!

So here is our unfinished family photo but soon it will.............Wait actually no it will not be finished because Naitile will be always growing and we are always changing. So really this is our family photo for now but it will not be this way for long!

I think sometimes we get so busy in the future we don't take time to be thankful for the blessings of God now. For example that I have two Parents that are alive to take pictures with and two brothers with families to laugh with. Wow we serve a good God

Take time today to stop and be thankful for the blessings that God has for you today. Trust me they are there.

Please be careful

PLEASE BE CAREFUL I am reminded today to be careful. Please be careful I hear in my head and my spirit. Be careful of how you look at thingsBe careful how you see thingsBe careful how you look at othersBe careful of what you think of othersBe careful of not making room for a "but God" momentLife is too short to read into things and people. I am reminded that the very thing I hate about women is the very thing that slips into my daily actions. I hear the cry "Be careful" echoing in my heart."Watch out" and "Danger" is what the signs would say if we were in a park. Unfortunately life does not have those physical signs to hit us in the head but God and the Holyspirit is crying loud please stop and be careful.Why do we still play high school games in the church and we are all suppose to be grown. Why must we look at others. Why must we constantly have to be worried or at least aware of what others might think........................The question that we must ask ourselves is our way really the only way? Oh I hear the cry please please be careful because as soon as we look at ourselves and grade others by yourself then we are only looking in a mirror and not able to see.Could you imagine driving down a busy road only looking at a mirror at yourself. Wow what a wreck that would but yet I warn and caution you that many are living their lives this way. Awake Listen and Stand on the only truth the holy word of God and Please be careful.___________________________________________________________________I am trying to be careful and trying to listen to God. Most of all I am trying to listen to God and not to the others that are thinking that they see me right! Come on my friends do you really think you know me that well? Do I know you that well where I have you pinned down? Don't mistake God's voice and mine? He is really the only one that knows us!I love you my friends and thank you for all the help and support but please be careful. Trust me the cry is for me too and I am trying to be careful.

I SAY YES

Ok it's been awhile! But God is doing a lot. I have been jogging and now I am able to job for 5 miles. I know that sounds like bragging and I am, but not really about me but about my God. My God has healed my body. I still to this day at some point in my run, still tear up with the excitement that God has really healed my body.
Now I still do have rough days but I don't give the enemy room and my God has healed my body!----------------------------------------------------------

I know it my surprise some of you but I have some problems saying no. Right now I am working three jobs because I can't say no and also the fact that I just figured out what job to quit. But God is not really asking us to say no to others but to say yes to Him. If we will just say Yes to God then the No's will just happen. My answer is Yes. Just know that saying Yes to God does not fit yours or others plans for you. Saying Yes to God could cost you everything. Could cost you relationships and things that you hold dear to you. But I say Yes.

So get ready my friends things are about to get interesting. I know and I know and I know what is before me so when you see it just know I said Yes to God. This is causing a quick change in how I see things and what I do and don't do. This transition has been hard because though I may not be good at it all the time I am trying to leave things with grace and also close my eyes and go through doors with confidence.

I have no idea what you are facing today. But take a minute and let God know your answer is yes. Tell Him, God it may cost me everything but my answer is yes

It has been awhile

Good Morning!!!

I have not wrote in awhile! It's been a busy busy time. It's hard to sometimes continue to live my life without guilt. It's like if I could I would just stop everything until my little girl got here but as you all know you can not do that.

I am so excited what God is doing!!! What a mighty God we serve!!

I know you are asking what has God done and probably are waiting for this amazing story and I have amazing stories but I am just touched by the simple fact that God loves us Today! He loves us!!! How cool is that!

The almighty God who made the world and don't forget made you, loves us!

I don't know what you are going through today but don't get so wrapped up that you don't take time to just think about God's love. He is so awesome and He deserves our utmost praise!

I know this might hurt a little but today is not about you. It's not about your desires, your schedule, your hopes, your dreams, your wants, when you want your kids home, or how much you want to do. It's about God and he desire of what He wants to do. Without Him we can so nothing! When we make it about us we lose God's covering and promises.

Don't miss out of His goodness today! Make today all about Him

These are the updates I got today! I just wanted to share with them with you!

Naitile
I was so excited to hear that Naitile has a family! She has a special place in my heart because I was visiting here in October when she first arrived. Naitile is so funny and animated, she likes to make silly faces and dance around. She has the best giggle, too! At times she can have an attitude. I can always count on Naitile to give kisses and hugs. Lately, she has been enjoying playing dolls and barbies with the other girls her age. She’s a very fun little girl!

Naitile
Beautiful, beautiful Naitile! Sometimes I call her “Teeli” for short. We have had fun together this summer. I so enjoy her energy, joy, and infectious giggle. Naitile has been enjoying her summer, playing outside on the jungle gym, jumping rope, and drawing with sidewalk chalk. She is also good at hitting a wiffle ball. A few days ago, she got to come upstairs with some of the older kids and go through alphabet flashcards, and then practiced tracing stencils. Naitile also really likes listening to stories, dancing and singing, and coloring. It has been great to get to know her this summer.

Dentist Chair Again

Well I just spent my morning in the dentist chair
again. But as much as I hate going to the dentist I am not complaining because I am one more tooth from being metal filling free! :-) Once again I had about four hours to try to think about something else.

Of course I thought about Naitile a lot! I thought about what she might be doing right now and what she would be doing if she was here. I thought about how awesome that God choose her to be my daughter and I have to trust that God also equipped her to have a Mom like me! :-)

There was another thought I was thinking about and I hope it's not to deep. I was thinking about how I could not feel the bottom of my face and how nice that is since I had three crowns and five fillings today. But it would not be nice to stay like this forever. Because for instance right now I am starving and eating is not a options. I got a drink to get the (after dental appt.) taste out of my mouth and I have to hold the straw to my mouth to make sure that I have my lips closed.

So like I said it's nice that it was numb for the dentist but staying that way would not be. But there is going to be a little discomfort when the numbing goes away but with that I know it's better to feel that little discomfort than to not feel at all.

Well sometimes when we walk through tough times God allows us to be numb in certain areas so that He can do a little work. Sometimes though when it's time for the numbing to go away and for us to feel again we back away and choose to stay numb. We walk around not able to eat right and not able to drink when needed. We trust more in the past then our Heavenly Physician Jesus.

God is saying all the work is done I just want you to allow yourself to love again, to trust again, and to be open again then the healing will be complete.

See today if I choose to stay numb you would say that my dentist is no good and the work is not complete. But really I choose for it not to be complete and because of that choice I would make my dentist look like he does not know what he is doing.

Wow how many times have I made my awesome Savior look like He does not know what He is doing. Make God look like His healing is not complete. No wonder the lost are staying lost we all walk around numb not able to eat right or drink right.

We serve a awesome God who heals and can make us whole. Make sure today that you are not worried about a little discomfort and allow yourself to love, trust, and be open again in that area that God had to do a little work on. It's time to show the world that God does know what He is doing.